I should be over you. Rained on my own parade I know you was down for me baby If I took advantage of you baby Talking to Vicky and fucking on Nicki But you was allowing it baby Sleeping on you I was lazy Did that shit on the daily Now you done dipped, the table done flipped And I'm tryna handle it baby All your family looked down on me Look at me now Forget getting rich when I'm old nigga I want it now You had everybody thinking we goals When the camera off its shit that they don't know I was unhappy girl I just didn't let it show Said you want to hurt me girl, I know Talking to a new nigga, how you cope Must have been talking to him on the low Cuz you moved on too fast It's my fault that we ain't last Should I called her phone, fuck that Cuz now I'm about my bag Want me to chase you that shit dead Your friends all in your head Tryna tell you that I ain't shit But we both know what it is We could have a house, a house on the lake But you couldn't wait But who could you blame? You could either and not want to give it another try, or you could be looking to give your relationship a second chance. We definitely managed to put each other through hell on occasion, but when support was needed the most, support was given. I cannot compete with that, and it would be foolish for me to even try. It has been terribly hard but if you can look at it from the bigger perspective and understand that if you do reach that point, your life will have changed for the better and you may even have a chance to reconcile with your lost love.
With you, you have shown me many possibilities in life and shown me many great things. In the library we watched movies together, we were fighting and I forced you to let me go and many more. I think on some level whether it is big or small, every relationship will have second thoughts or doubts. When were intimate, did you ever look into my eyes and feel my pain and my true love? But you never gave me that because you would never let me dare speak of it. So I will leave the door partially open for you. And by the way, I got your letter saying that you wanted me to profess my love for you in front of everyone. My only regret is that I have paid the heaviest price of being honest and that too by parting ways with a woman with whom I wanted to spend the rest of my life.
You saw the dark clouds, stopped in your tracks, started walking back and almost convinced yourself that the sun will never shine again. They will never compare to you. At that moment, I wanted to be with you so we could build a new life together. Would it be so bad if we got together for coffee from time to time? And sometimes I stayed not because I wanted to. Maybe thats all you could give because you feared love and happiness.
There were the times that I would have wanted to be somewhere else. Sometimes you know the person is entirely wrong for you. But maybe that is a part of history you like to forget, or maybe it was conveniently not taught to you. I was at my room, the room that you sleep when you came over to my place, the room that we spent our time together watching movie. Tango - wow, amazing honest letter!! I will not text you, I will not email you, I will not call you. Getting stupid drunk at least 500 times. Who wrote your history books? I was so scared at that time and I'm a bit disappointed with your words.
A lifetime of companionship, family vacations, milestones, laughter, and love. I will always be a part of you. Just like when we first met, I was hooked. I had only started to come to terms with my childhood trauma. I tried to give you everything. I tried to hold my tears in front of you and I did.
I hope I at least deserve to be given a patient reading. Millions of people have gone through this and unfortunately millions still will. Our journey together was far longer. I can never deny who I am. And our perception of perfection is always a state of the mind. I pray that may such times never come in your life because believe me, it's the most miserable feeling ever and I never want you to go through what I have been through.
So rather than acting in an immature way and relying on criticism and low-blows, you should opt to take the high road instead. That it was time for both of us to move on. I did sincerely try but there is always a better way. The words you use and the way you present what you have to say are going to play a crucial part in changing the course of events. After days of allowing myself time to heal and go through a shower of emotions ranging from agony, hurt, pain, sorrow, grief and what not, I have finally decided to say what I had to say for last 2 months but could not say because the opportunity never came. Today, I am the same man you met, plus so much more. You want to know why I forgive you? How it was meant to be part of our journey in life.
I already have closure about our relationship. How about the last several generations of your ancestors? Wish you a great, bright, loving future. You never allowed me to express my sadness when you betrayed me. At least, I could say to myself that once upon a time, someone had loved me. There is nothing worse than choosing to let go and move on when you know that your best friend will never be more than just that, a best friend. The only regret that I have is the fact that everything we had between us went in vain just because of a few misunderstandings, none of which were our faults.
He may have a new girlfriend, a family, or may just simply not want to reconnect with you. I am saying goodbye to tiramisu we need more espresso! You would much rather not go back to somebody that has sacrificed his own whole world for you, and who you once shared a lot of things with. It's nice to see such honesty in a guy and nice to be able to relate to someone - my ex is very black and white and scared of being hurt, he thinks with his head not his heart hence going our separate ways. I will always travel the extra mile for you and if required I will go through the gates of hell for you. I pray that may there never be a time in your life when you will feel as helpless and dejected as I felt over last few weeks. I may have a hard time expressing my love but you melted my heart. Israel I celebrated my fourth year Marriage anniversary yesterday, i can remember it was Priest Ajigar that help me.